I'd like to believe

well, a lot of things I guess
first things first - yes, I am alive-
( although I seem to be getting asked this question a lot )
so not sure how much my say counts for...

I am just trying to organise a few things
myself mostly,
and perhaps not going as well as I should be.
The hardest things is starting one new aspect,
one new things I haven't tackled before..

But I guess that is old news.
of course what is new is always hard.

Mostly I am trying to figure out what to do with myself.
no small task I can assure you.
but I have narrowed it down and the criteria
for any prospective careers and jobs has been decided.

But of course in contextual and such,
but I know there must be balance.
There must always be balance, in anything and everything we do.

In this case it must be between success and happiness.
Undoubtedly an extremely common balance sought I do not doubt.

although I really don't know,
those few I have narrowed it down to are all so different and all stand out and for different reasons!
I guess I have never had an obvious career path. that has always been obvious,
I love a lot of things , and I am certainly not lacking in intelligence.
there are very few subjects or aspects in life in which i have not/ do not excel
( and yes - obviously height is one of them =P )

So yes. My little dilemma.
well, big dilemma I suppose.
but relatively, one very small things in all this world, which is even then so small.

Love and miss you all -
Goodnight <3
ayrton

Listening to - Sistar - Alone

I See

crazy people...
soooo many....

I mean today I had someone at work complain abut that fact that here hair got wet,
as some of the swimmers were kicking
( you know, using their legs, like they are supposed to )
and getting her hair wet, calling them a very offensive word I can't put up here!
I mean she was in the water doing laps too!
she expected to not get her hair wet?
It's a pool? and she was swimming!

going swimming and expecting not to get your hair wet
is like going to a chocolate factory and expecting NOT to eat heaps of chocolate.
 I mean even if you don't plan too, it just happens!
I mean it's a swimming centre for goodness' sake.


and yes.
chocolate does sometimes just happen.
Obviously. Sometimes the jar of Nutella and spoon just magically appear in my hand,
I swear!

jeez peoples.

Oh and the costume is coming along slowly I'm afraid to say.
**sadface**
ahh well.


**hugs**
Missing you all,
ayrton


Listening to ; Se7en - Somebody Else