spring is in the air!

WOOT!
such nice weather today!

we have had such nice weather this week!

..bar yesterday, when there was a storm
( but hey, that;s Tasmania for you -.- )

so, made full advantage of it today!
or, tried to.
my alarm clock hates me.

anyways,
it was actually so hot i was overheating waiting for the bus stop in
my shorts and open top shirt! ( it's purple =D )
so nice =D

and since I haven't indulged myself with a lunch for a few weeks,
I allowed myself today.
I found a tiny tiny cafe that does a huge variety of coffee's, so struck out on a limb and tried a "toffee coffee"
?    =P
was actually pretty cool =)

Oh!
you know those oversized smartie-cookies they sell everywhere?

i have never actually had one!
so i got one with my coffee,
and wow!
despite it being 2pm and not having eaten, i didn't actually manage to finish it! it was so filling!

oh, amusing moment ;
a car that was so stuffed up. i spent about fifteen seconds thinking,
" wow that toddler has an amazing set of lungs..."
and looking for the hoodie and tank-top clad toddler ,

before realising it was a car attempting to go around the corner....

I also discovered on wednesday,
that this city is not a hole, as so many would tell you.

no hole has so many friggin hills in it!
I, in my glorious time management and planning skills,
game myself about ten minutes to memorize the walk to the medical clinic from town on google maps,
just before I left home for it,
and estimated it would take me about half an hour walk.

thankfully, I have a good sense of direction,

because google maps gave no sense of scale, or terrain.

my legs, were so sore, when I got to the clinic, ( it was also sweltering-ly hot )
i was exhausted, and hadn't even started my medical examination.


what else.....


ahh yes!
sorry, I do love my tangents =P

so, I spent most of this afternoon wandering through city park, finding all the little nooks and shaded places,
and the sunny ones too =D
end enjoying the park in it's springtime beauty and peace =)
I love those gnarled old trees, which are just covered in boles,
that just make you think,
that is so climb-able....


and you momentarily forget there are several dozen other people in the park, you are a nineteen year old guy glad in white and purple ,
and begin mind mapping where you are going to put your hand, visualizing the climb to that awesome fork up the tree you can see,....
and just as you go to put that foot on the base and reach out for that bole with your hand,

reality come flooding back.

sucks, SO much.......


oh well.
one day, tree, when no one is watching...I am coming for you! =D

just kidding.
really.
pfft , who would do that....
call me?

pfft, joking, I swear >.>


anyway, that was my day, how was yours?
I hope it was well.
Be brave , and don't be afraid =)

<3

Listening to ; The Song of Purple Summer - Spring Awakening 

back in Launie...

Yay.....

oh well.

so, I was thinking today. ...
**internal dialogue** "that's good to hear ayrton, be worried if you weren't..."

about what we think of ourselves, and what we look like, an dhow we dress...

a lot we don't really have power over.

and I suppose I find that although i am far from the cutest or hottest guys out there,
or have the the best memory, the best intellect, best clothes, or the best skills with a brush, 

th best hair or what ever you are worried about with yourself,

i find it helps to think as if life is a game of poker.
we can't change the cards we have been dealt,
but , 

that doesn't matter so much.
if you can convince everyone else that you have different cards to the ones you have,
they don't really mean much now do they?
I found this works, and helps...sometimes.

at the very least, it's a lot of fun =P

okay!

sorry, that's all for today =P

hope you are all well =)

lots of love <3

listening to ; Christina Aquilera - Express

happiness found =D

yays!
al better now.


i sit at home lying on the big rug on our lounge room floor, in front of the fire with chocoloate,
 a bowl of ice-cream and a bowl of strawberries,
and my cute steffi puppy next to me!
and watching the emmy's.

( aka shoddy drama tv =P )
who could ask for more?

=)

listing to ; Morning Musume - Sexy Boy

happy quote ;

"you have to be you, as everyone else is taken,"

watched hairspray on the bus back to Hobart with jess, was good fun =)
and awesome girl to spend time with =)


felling a little better, listing to something that gives me some strength =)

sometimes you just need to get the tears out, and work upwards =)

loving and missing you =) xx

listening to ; Sofia Nizharadze - Shine

friday!

so, sorry again about last night's rant,
I have removed it,
I was bad of me, and rude and offensive.
I am sorry that I wrote it.
reason one why I shouldn't write when I am sad =P

anyways! very excited, i am going down to Hobart this weekend! so happy! will be trying to catch up with a few people as i can, which will be great!
haven't seen so many people in months!
I do miss seeing my friends so often =P

oh well.

and I will do my best to come down more over the holiday,s although that seems unlikely at best :/

but! oh well.
we have had a lot of sun shine today!
 mixed in with some rain and clouds, but we have had sun!
XD

ahh dear.

oh well. I must make the most of it whilst it lasts!
and I must enjoy this weekend =)
just have to sit back, relax , try not t worry, and try not to be sad,

and enjoy the city, enjoy salamanca! =D

and enjoy the fact that i am in my home city once again! =D

So. now i sit and home and watch so you think you can dance...some pretty cool stuff.some.... how strange.

how weird....I come home, and i sit alone in my own home.... how strange.

oh well, thank goodness I have my STEFFI! =D

oh well.
hope you are well,
I love and miss you <3

listening to ; Morning Musume - Onna ni Sachi Are

I got the job!...I think? XD

yeah...
i have to have a full medical screening...
drugs testing,
eyes and hearing testing,
....
and argh! so creepy! i have to give a supervised urine sample!
ARGH!
icky-ness!
argh! creepy and so yucky and super scared! >.<

thank god they are paying for it though! ahh well.


also, my happiness for today.
my sleep patterns of late has been something strange, and I have been feeling quite down i suppose.

so, i was a little bit sick of it by today.

so, as I always do, i got my skinny red jeans out,
found a nice simple light blue t-shirt length buisness shirt with checked  pattern on pocket and cuffs,
got my suspenders,
my funky belt and boots,
and my 8-bit bowtie =D

so much fun =D

still a little down in feeling though.
no idea why.

oh well.
someone cheer me up please? :/

oh! and we watched St Trinians last night!
so glad! such an awesome movie! =D

and i discovered that the child in Wuthering Heights has the same name as me! argh!
if i was named after a character in Wuthering Heights, I may have to change my name :/

oh well. downloading lots of music from St Trinians now, loved the last number =D

also! Glee!
although i have only watched about half a dozen episodes this year, I watched the premier for this upcoming season last night, was pretty good.

although, when they attempted to do a cover of Hairspray's you can't stop the beat, i hid in a corner and called it blasphemy. it was that bad. really. you just can't do that. it wasn't right....


other than that,awesome episode, loved it =)
and please, I am not a gleek,
and as a rule i rarely prefer their covers to the original.
I don't know, I suppose it's just my occasional dose of drama.
characters...I don't actually like many of them :/
they all annoy me, they don't seem...real...?

i mean, i like mercedes, she is awesome, and tina and mike, very cool =D

kurt...annoys me the most. I know , that being a gay guy i should for some reaspn love him, but his character is appalling! so self absorbed and arrogant...
and he really puches it soetimes. i don't like his outfits :/

Blaine , on the other hand, is awesome, he is a more relaxed, not so over the top character.
and, bonus, he is super sexy >.<

n.b. no, not a crush, i just think he's cute. I have never had a celebrity crush, neither do i plan to. that would just be plain silly and pointless.
pfft. honestly,
I have that much control over my emotions, jeez =P

ahh well. I hope you are well,
I love you  =) xx

listening to ; Morning Musume - Onna to Otoko no Lullaby Game

Judgement.

okay.
warning, this is a late night-I-wish-I-was-with-someone-ramble.
stuart, if you are reading this, just don't =P


So, I was thinking
( consciousness says;" oh god this is how they all start...")
about thinking, I suppose.
how we are all our own most harsh critique of our own work,
 and how we look,
about everything we do and say,
how well we do,
in life,
in work,
i school....
and we punish ourselves enough for our actions and mistakes more often than not,
with our own guilty and emotional stress we place on ourselves with regret, remorse and chagrin.

but how strange is it, because, we are never actually a very good judge of ourselves?
I don't know how to say this...we never really realise who we are for ourselves, I think.

do you understand?
we never really figure out our own style,
or how we work best,
what we are best at,
what kind of people we are,
where we fit....

don't you think?

so strange.

So, I don't know...
that's why I don't mind, hell,
I appreciate it when people tell me what they think of me, but only if they are honest, else there really sin't much point....



So, I can't say I have had a huge amount of stuff going on,
it just takes up all of my emotional energy and thinking caoacuty,
since I din't really understand much of it.

I know I am changing a lot right now,
and I don't think I am cioping very well...

I am not sure

and that scares me, a lot.

how ever, the part that scares me most, is that a small part of me,
and what's worse is it appears to be growing,
doesn't care, how I am changing, or who i am....

and that scares the hell out of me.

the one thing, I have always prided myself on, is being a good person.
and I have always known that, to the depths of who i am,

and part of me worries,
that if I am any more, or at least,
for much longer.....



okay. sorry, I just needed to get that out,
and I am little sorry for you if you read all that...

#note , for Stuart, I am not really sure why I write "do not read." I know you don't appreciate "drama",

and that I don't understand.
I don't think I understand what you call the concept of " drama"
I think I see it more as living, whilst having emotions switched on.
for a long time I didn't, and couldn't, and I was horrified by it, by who I was....
but now...
I think I was wrong like that.

but I don't understand why you can't listen to someone's problems and juts be bored or annoyed by it, that someone wouldn't feel compassion and empathy for them, to do something?
that to me is wrong.
I would, ( and do, when  get the option )
sit and read and talk to my friends who share their troubles and problems, and all the little nitty-gritty of life and living in all its'f forms.

and i think that's how you get to know people, how strong friendships are made, by showing that you care,.....

hell, i know some may sad it's sad and cliche,

but hell, I really don't care what those emotionally dead people with no sympathy or compassion think.


wow, oxymoron much re-reading that? XD

I think its just when i hear someone say
"oh they were being all dramatic over such and such,
 omg I am so over it from them! I wish they would just shut up
they talk about so much crap!"

that, really hurts me. and annoys me.

wow, if you are still reading this, **high five**
because you're freaking amazing and I love you! <3

and I am sorry that you are so bored,
or possibly so skilled at procrastination =P

anyways, I need some sleep.
although I know I probably won't, my sleep has been doing weird things lately!

sorry again for long post, it's been a while, so I thought I should make up for it =P

I love you =)  <3

Listening to ; Is It True? - Yohanna 

movie night!

So!
tonight i am suppsedly going to afriend house for a movie night,


argh! the indecision!
I am not sure which movie to take, so i am taking two.


I am never sure to go for one that everyone will enjoy,
but everyone has seen,
or that no one has ever heard of,
which may result in no one wanting to watch it,
or them all hating it.....

bah! oh well.

oh! and i found a cute little necklace today! it is bronze metal links for part, then black cord, and the pendant is a little clock frame.
so cute =D


except now I have too many necklaces, and now I have to much trouble deciding which one to wear
-.-

smart one ayrton....


Oh! and i haven't heard back from the pool about lifeguard job yet, they only had last interviews yesterday,
should know by friday =D

i think i am going to take Hairspray ( a little old, but awesomely awesome =D )
and St Trinians, which i have never seen, but looks good and a few people have said it was cool =)
another oldie though i think?

was going to take burlesque,
but figured that anyone who wouldn't have seen it,
probably just wouldn't be there XD

am also going to take lots of chocolate =D

anyways, sorry for rambling!

love for you <3

listening to ; Getter Jaani - Rockefeller Street

MAICon!

Hi!
=D
so, had MAICon today,
was a lot of awesome fun, will put photos up when i can,
but I believe I am also in the newspaper ( the examiner )
so you can always go to their website? =P

so, my Vaan costume didn't quite make it,
so I had to wear my Asurmen costume again.
guess what?
I WON the cosplay! =D

oh well. I am now going to sit down and finish my Vaan costume.
may wear it to the ArchiBall on wednesday. we'll see I guess =)


so! was a lot of fun, their were lots of games, events and lots of stuff to buy!
not quite as awesome as AICon, but still very cool =D

for example, I was part of a cosplay date, ...
and auction...
I was part of the deal or no deal game...
tentacles and mechs..
( an anime themed rip off of spicks and specs =P )
and a super smash bros. brawl tournament ...
( I failed miserably! I haven't played it in months and had forgotten most of the buttons XD )
and of course the Cosplay competition and the Fruits competition!
 for those who don;t know, fruits is like a fashion style / show for lolita and anime style costumes =)
very cool! =)

got a few little things ( an 8-bit bow tie for example )
which I thought were absolutely adorable and had to get! and a necklace with a cuckoo clock on it! =D
so awesome!
=D

oh well, sorry about lack if images of cool things, I know I did say I'd put some up, but I have been really busy, so sorry! :'(

love for you <3

listening to ; Bulletproof - La Roux

Nutella =D

okay. so . I have chocolate =D
hehehee!

which is bad because I am going to be dressed very scantily in about two days...
and I will probably be fat.
oh well. at least I will look tan...
and my costume will be awesome =D

....
if I get it done on time -.-
argh!
oh well.

so, I was getting a little bored of my music the other day, asked a few friends for music,
and this one awesome guy,
who knows of my weird taste in k-pop and j-pop,
showed me this awesome group,
and ZOMG I have listened to then non-stop on repeat ever sibce. and have them stuck in my head constantly.
argh!
so awesome!
yet so annoying!
yet so awesome!
XD

ahh well.
okay! I have lots of cool stuff to show you which I totally forgot to take photos of / scan in!
so super sorry!
I will do it tomorrow, I promise! =D

also! I have an interview tomorrow!
WOOT! =D
lifeguard at the pool =P
its a very nice pool,
and I swim there every day already,
so I know the pool and most of that jazz,
so I hope I get it!
wish me luck =D

love for you <3



Listening to ; Morning Musume - Onna ni Sachi Are

Found a few cool quotes for you all!  =D

" Do not mistake temptation for opportunity; "

" If you want the rainbow, you must put up with the rain."

" Only boring people are bored, "

" Who gossips to you, will gossip about you,"

another awesome quote  :3


"Its a million times better to have a gay teen kid than having to worry about teen pregnancy"


( this is from my wondrous mother when I outed myself to her =P )


although if she was worried about that i will admit it did make me wonder about what kind of a person she thought I was :'(



and a few more cool things on The Cool Hunter :3

This last one did give me quite a giggle XD

anyways, hope you are well,

love for you! <3

Listeing to ; Margaret Cho - Eat Sh*t and Die

lyrical genius! I have been giggling like a schoolgirl at this one for two days now =P 

horror movie..

Oh! and I suppose I should explain my heading last post :3

that was because me, being the super genius that I am,
decided to try and save money by being efficient and buying a large 1L tub of yoghurt,
instead of the little 300ml ones i usually get, saving me about $7 =D

....buuttt , instead it just meant that instead of eating 300ml of yoghurt when i sat down to watch natalie tran on youtube, I ate 1L.

smart ayrton. great job.

Also! to said awesome guy, I do hope you are reading this.
I have a bad feeling you may not be.
oh well.
I said in my last post that you were crazier than I was. I don't think you know I'm crazy yet...so...
yeah...
:3
it'll come in about two weeks or so, then you can be scared and run away.
but please don't.

i will probably follow you anyway...

It'll make sense once you meet some of my friends. One weekend when we somehow both end up down in hobart, wows, ahaha we will have so much to do! =D
( please don't be scared, I mean that i just would like to show you around Hobart's awesomeness and meet some of my amazing friends =D )


You know how you always got told off by your parents for jumping on the bed?
mine never actually said why....
I assume they probably had a reason. But I can't think of a logical one....
which results in that whenever I am at home and dancing around doing awesome crazy dancing and
drama-style Karaoke , I end up jumping around and dancing on my bed.

and I gotta say, god damn its so much fun =D



I don't like horror movies.

at all. like seriously.
i get really paranoid.
and its always the cute and innocent young ones that die either first,
or really painfully and gruesomely.
which is why, when everyday i get people telling me how young and cute i am,
i don;t like it.

because i know, that if i ever end up in some weird sci-fi horror film situation,
i am absolutely Fucked!


Listening to ; Brat Pack - The Rocket Summer
awesome song. it's kinda my song of the moment atm =)
go have a listen =P

i just ate a kilo of passion fruit yoghurt....oh dear....

Oh what a day!
my goodness,
how eventful.
well, I think I am at least officially dating this
( very cute, humerous, fun loving , and even crazier than I am! =D
and...i don;t know. he's just fun to be around! he is a fun person and personality =D
and zomg actually only a tiny but taller than me XD )

and..I don't know. I know I have to be careful,
and I know that no relationship is going to be a fairytale.

I know all that jazz, been through a relationship before peoples =P

I just hope this one works.
hell, I like him a lot more than I should ,
considering how long we've been seeing each other XD

ahh well.

anyway, there was a point to that!
i swear!
so, dancing together out on town last night,
( he seems to know everyone I swear! )
and when i first walked in and met him, in the middle of the dancefloor,
we kissed, and I remember to my amusement hearing behind me from several blondes;
"oh my god! is that two guys?""I think it is" Oh my god! **hysterical laughter**"

I found it rather amusing XD
and then later, when half surrounded my a few of his friends, a few ( to my knowledge )
random chicks who I think had been watching us, walk up and say
"hey, are you guys gay?'
in a very suss voice,

and my this cute boy   (who shall remain unnamed =P )
decided to become a rather playful  they were whilst watching, exchanging playful slaps and pokes,
until finally leaning over and kissing me!
in the middle of the outside-dance-area-thing
which resulted in a massive cheer from all assembled friends and random girls watching XD

This made my night XD
( well, apart from this very cute and amazing guy, of course =P )

So, after most of the morning ( okay, fine , and lucnhtime as well =P )
was spent sleeping in with said brilliant boy,

comes homes,
and decides to sit outside in the wonderful sunshine and work for a few hours.

I don't understand why people don't do it more often.
instead, people seem to sit in side and complain about not being out in the sun, stuck inside studying.

i worked this one out years ago!
honestly.
just take a matt or rug or something lay it down on the grass, grab your iPod or speakers, take your work out with you,
lie down ,do your work and enjoy the sun!

it just makes sense. otherwise, you waste so much time inside wishing you were outside you get next to nothing done! so just go outside and do it there! it is so much more efficient! =D


love for you =) xx


Listening to ; Kelly Clarkson - My Life Would Suck With Out You

you an' me could write a bad romance...

God i love that song.
there are three songs that I know of
that have always been able to completely change my mood,
no matter how down or moody I am, when one of them starts...
the make me happy, or motivated, inspired, energetic, dance-y..
or more often than not all of the above =D

I have had an awesome day today,
stared off a little early, got up and got a few bits of costume done,
before heading onto town
tp go swimming, get the last few things for my costume,
pay rent and buy some food for
my awesome friend Jess' birthday picnic! =D

which was awesome fun, met lots of new people who were all lovely
and I am pretty sure jess had a ball, which was the plan =D
good times =)

So now I lie in bed watching Natalie Tran on youtube, laughing myself into fits,

and browsing The Cool Hunter for awesome photos and inspiration =D
some of which i will share with you now.

because a little inspiration never goes astray ;)

and because this awesomeness seemed very applicable after watching lots of Natalie Tran XD
Oh whom i highly recommend you go watch lots of hours of on youtube ;)

 and because I want these shoes.

all photos from the cool hunter! not mine!

anyways, hope you are well!
hugs for you <3

Listening to ; Through and Through - Paris Wells

Valium

Don't you love those moments,
when you are listening to your ipod,
and you think of  a song you haven't heard in a while
and then it comes on next on shuffle?
=D

it just makes me happy =3


today seems to be filled with those little moments of happiness,
where everything just works,
y'know? =)

it really is all the little things that make a good day I find =)

Also! loving that awesome moment when:
you are designing/ drawing up your gloves for costume,
you try the thumb design and fitting correctly.
it works.
YES! =D

aaand, I have finally been doing some sketches again! i found myself bored at uni the other day,
soooo...
instead of my essay, I decided that sitting down and drawing for two and half hours was a productive way to spend my time until I had lunch with a friend in town.
=3

but.
Dear paper card I am working with.
pleas harden the F*** up!
I have never had to use so many layers to get the right shape -.-

Also! for all the sad people out there,
here is a house that Looks like a Yoshi =D

Well, I am going to go back to my costume making. 

hope you are well.

hug for you <3

Listening to : Hot Chelle Rae - Tonight 

Jag saknar dig

tiredness indication.

tries to get money out.
puts card in atm.
something beeps.
half registers.
hand puts in pin.
realises atm isn't beeping normally.
my card is now out.
huh?
look at card.
no, its fine...
scary moment that something is horribly wrong with my card.

hears a giggle from lady behind me.
looks down again.

**dies**

yes. it would appear I did just stick my metro green-card card into an atm....
**facepalm**

then quickly shoves everything back into my wallet and hurries away quickly praying no-one else noticed.

the realises that I didn't actually get money out, and I kind of need to....

but still really doesn't want to get a stupid $2 surcharge for using another atm....
so decides to go back and get money out later.

Also!
I have to give a shout out, an awesome friend enlightened me today,
 go to youtube, and go to the community channel!

she is AWESOME! =D

and my costume is slowly appearing....slowly!
i forgot to get two parts though! so I need to go shopping to get three things,
 then I can begin in earnest! =D

love for you <3

Listening to ; Malena Ernman - La Voix

obsession?

So....
i wasn't going to be making a costume...

for MAIcon
and I was just going to re-use my elf costume from tow years ago
re-do the chest lacing
 ( it needs it, never quite fitted right
I needed to extend the lames, but otherwise, awesome. )

but now,
after discovering this character a few hours ago,
and I am already piecing it together and have a mind map of how I'm doing it.
:3

well that worked well ayrton didn't it? >.>

my uni may suffer...
but for some reason I am more worried by the fact
that i have only one and a half weeks to do it!

apparently the character suits me...
maybe. with longer hair and in
a few months when I have a summer tan...
maybe.

but no.
I wish I had that jawline,
but no.

Oh! I haven't actually told you who the character is have I?

I feel kinda bad, doing a final fantasy charater is kinda bad/ cliche....
but oh well.
he looks
AWESOME!

anywho,
It's Vaan from FF XII

And he's so friggin' cute!
=D

it was hard finding details of his back for the costume, but I got there =D

hug for you <3

Listening to ; SNSD - Run Devil Run

Wine Red

Well well well little blogg!
how has everything been?
I think I am finally better from my illness
which turned out to be a chest infection

so thank goodness for that!

so, in celebration, has gathered up al his pillows and made them up on his bed,
and is going to have a movie night in celebration.
i had a mini one last night,
and it was pretty awesome =P

and I am well on my way for
memorizing Hairspray =D

what's up for tonight....
i think...
Bend It like Beckham ( and oldie but a goodie )
Legally Blonde - the Musical
Possibly  a Harry Potter....
more likely some Ouran High anime if i can find it =D

what are you up to?
anything special?

Oh! and i have to say thankyou to all my amazing friends
who ( despite my protests ) have bought me some amazing presents
all of which i must say i am incredibly grateful of, i will not forget,
and I will repay you twofold =P

hehehee! XD


Listening to ; Inga & Anush - Jan-Jan
( zomg! love the costumes for this song! definitely one of my fav's of all time =D )

La Voix

So,  looked over an old awesome facebook page today'
" Hey, look at my hot boyfriend, LOL jk I'm going to die alone with 27 cats."
I must admit , I did find it rather amusing.
but, hell, why cats?
i know cats are the cliche 
creatures for lonely peoples...
but ...well...WHY?
now, I am not a cat or dog person, I like both.
and I must say, most cats, when you try to hug them, try to claw your face off,
and are generally evil.
true, people say cat's have personality and dogs don't, 
( I disagree ) 
but cats, if they do, most cats are cynical, eccentric, selfish and evil! ) 
but very, very , very cute and fluffy! =D 
or the typical short-haired serene-gazing cat that sits on tall objects and stare down at passers-by.
those cats give me the creeps.


still cool though =D

so. sorry, I will leave the tangent now...back to my other rant. XD


But I would definitely go for a few dogs 
as oppose to living surrounded by a score of cats....


they may not all be hugely bright 
which is why I'd get huskies or malamutes =D
( they are supposedly smart ( er? ) dogs...
which are medium-large , fluffy, happy, beautiful dogs ( love their eyes =D ) 



and yeah, they require a bit of looking after, but so what.


they are happy, loyal, bouncy creatures that love hugs and to play with, 
which is much more what a sad, depressed lonely person needs,


rather than two dozen cats which probably will just sit there glaring, 
scratching and giving that
I-am-so-much-better-than-you,-you-lowly-pathetic-human-thing!
stare that they always give you when they are in a bad mood
( which is when they are tired, have just woken up, have just eaten, or are hungry )
....
so....most of the time? 
=P

Thus,
I, will live alone, but not lonely , surrounded by 
a dozen  big, loyal, cuddly and cute dogs 
that love me as much as I love them! =D


Love for you <3

listening to ; Hairspray - You Can't Stop The Beat! 

Yoshi's day out =D

So.
since my friend now knows what is in stall for her....
I figure I may as well have some fun with it.
so today Yoshi came with me
on my daily errands =D

He doesn't get on very with my current room-mates...

When we went shopping,

he got put in the naughty basket for misbehaving while we were going through the greens....

and turned those sook-ish puppy-dog eyes of his on me when I walked straight past the chocolates!

the lovely lady at the counter gave a a confuzzled,

"well he's cute isn't he? "

before wondering why he was shopping for groceries with me....

then lunch time! we went into town.

he tried to steal my milkshake!

 =O

AND was eyeing off my chocolate muffin!
I swear I saw him take a few bites....


A lot of people gave me strange stares at this point...

 sitting and eating muffin and milkshake with a large pink Yoshi....
So I made a sign,
saying, " SMILE! =D "
 and stuck it
 to his feet and sat him up, facing everyone that walked past.

I think I may have to do that again.
do you mind if I mind him a little longer? =D

I tell you, those smiles I got?
made my day.
It gave me something to smile for,
and today that's really what I needed =D


Hugs for you! <3


Listening to : P!nk - So What 

Someone like you...

Sometimes...
you need to cry.
it just helps, get all for the depressing stuff out of the way
it doesn't matter what sets it off.
just get it out there.
blast away all your sad music,
and cry to your poor heart's content

so, my Yohanna, He is We, Adele, Marina & the Diamonds,
 Younha and Lidia Kopania ,
have been blasting my ears for the last few hours....

and I must say, I do feel better now.
it just helps get your thoughts in order.
and I need to cry every now and again.

I actually mean that.

I have problems with my tear ducts,
and I need to know they work =P
when I was two they were blocked, and caused me all kinds of hell,
and had to have a lot of surgery to sort it all out.

so yeah, crying is good for you =P
never be afraid!

lots of love for you =)

Listening to : He Is We - I Wouldn't Mind ( great song, go have a listen ;) )