I'd like to believe

well, a lot of things I guess
first things first - yes, I am alive-
( although I seem to be getting asked this question a lot )
so not sure how much my say counts for...

I am just trying to organise a few things
myself mostly,
and perhaps not going as well as I should be.
The hardest things is starting one new aspect,
one new things I haven't tackled before..

But I guess that is old news.
of course what is new is always hard.

Mostly I am trying to figure out what to do with myself.
no small task I can assure you.
but I have narrowed it down and the criteria
for any prospective careers and jobs has been decided.

But of course in contextual and such,
but I know there must be balance.
There must always be balance, in anything and everything we do.

In this case it must be between success and happiness.
Undoubtedly an extremely common balance sought I do not doubt.

although I really don't know,
those few I have narrowed it down to are all so different and all stand out and for different reasons!
I guess I have never had an obvious career path. that has always been obvious,
I love a lot of things , and I am certainly not lacking in intelligence.
there are very few subjects or aspects in life in which i have not/ do not excel
( and yes - obviously height is one of them =P )

So yes. My little dilemma.
well, big dilemma I suppose.
but relatively, one very small things in all this world, which is even then so small.

Love and miss you all -
Goodnight <3
ayrton

Listening to - Sistar - Alone

i just ate a kilo of passion fruit yoghurt....oh dear....

Oh what a day!
my goodness,
how eventful.
well, I think I am at least officially dating this
( very cute, humerous, fun loving , and even crazier than I am! =D
and...i don;t know. he's just fun to be around! he is a fun person and personality =D
and zomg actually only a tiny but taller than me XD )

and..I don't know. I know I have to be careful,
and I know that no relationship is going to be a fairytale.

I know all that jazz, been through a relationship before peoples =P

I just hope this one works.
hell, I like him a lot more than I should ,
considering how long we've been seeing each other XD

ahh well.

anyway, there was a point to that!
i swear!
so, dancing together out on town last night,
( he seems to know everyone I swear! )
and when i first walked in and met him, in the middle of the dancefloor,
we kissed, and I remember to my amusement hearing behind me from several blondes;
"oh my god! is that two guys?""I think it is" Oh my god! **hysterical laughter**"

I found it rather amusing XD
and then later, when half surrounded my a few of his friends, a few ( to my knowledge )
random chicks who I think had been watching us, walk up and say
"hey, are you guys gay?'
in a very suss voice,

and my this cute boy   (who shall remain unnamed =P )
decided to become a rather playful  they were whilst watching, exchanging playful slaps and pokes,
until finally leaning over and kissing me!
in the middle of the outside-dance-area-thing
which resulted in a massive cheer from all assembled friends and random girls watching XD

This made my night XD
( well, apart from this very cute and amazing guy, of course =P )

So, after most of the morning ( okay, fine , and lucnhtime as well =P )
was spent sleeping in with said brilliant boy,

comes homes,
and decides to sit outside in the wonderful sunshine and work for a few hours.

I don't understand why people don't do it more often.
instead, people seem to sit in side and complain about not being out in the sun, stuck inside studying.

i worked this one out years ago!
honestly.
just take a matt or rug or something lay it down on the grass, grab your iPod or speakers, take your work out with you,
lie down ,do your work and enjoy the sun!

it just makes sense. otherwise, you waste so much time inside wishing you were outside you get next to nothing done! so just go outside and do it there! it is so much more efficient! =D


love for you =) xx


Listening to ; Kelly Clarkson - My Life Would Suck With Out You