All Hallow's Eve =D

so!
tonight is All Hallow's Eve!
we only had a few kids come around nocking tonight :'(

i don't understand why so few people do it?
it's a good festival/ celebration<
and an excuse to dress up/ have fun and get/ recieve lot's of chocolate and lollies!
or tricks, as it may be =D

all worth it?
but the you get those crazy people who hate it because of it's orogins in Samhain and teh original drudic rituals...
meh.
I know a few Wiccans.

and i prefer them to most of my Christian friends, just quietly. XD
i mean, they don't like it because of it's bad history.
i don't dislike every christian becauee of teh Church's bad history.
pfft. some people take thinsg to seriously. they read everuthing word for word and take it all so literally they forget or lose the point of it, what it means, what it's for.

bah! silly peoples XD

oh well.
I get to dress up and have fun with my awesome little half brother Raoul =P
and my brother and family.
and see all the lovely smiling faces and cool costumes around?
it's like a bis all community theatre or play!
=D
a night out at the theatre and entertainment for free?
=D
bah! some people XD
hah, they're the one missing out on all the fun and chocolate =P
hehehee!
more for me =P

sorry, late night mini-rage =P

hope you are all well,
love you all <3

listening to ; Morning Musume - Onna Ni Sachi Are

update

sorry it has been s long!
I have been feeling a bit sick lately, sorry guys :/

so yeah, costume didn't make it, currently lying in bed at home sick and half asleep wishing i was out with my friends.

I have been so tired!

I have now officially watched every single Natalie Tran youtube video I can find.
=D
I know. epic achievement in procrastination =D
i live an amazing life don't I.....

but oh well. I will finish the costume soon, just letting a layer of paint dry for now.

in other news...UNI is all over now =D
and I have just had my first two shifts at my new work last week =)

work is very awesome, richard, one of the guys who's been "training" me
( i say "training" as we soon discovered that I have been lifeguarding as long as he has XD )
he's pretty awesome =D
and the customer service girls and ladies are pretty awesome =D
I'm not sure of her name, only that she has a senior position and blonde hair, and a  giant smile constantly,
they are all really nice and bubbly and friendly, and she in particular is just a little crazy =D

it's amazing =D

oh! and we have cleaners! which means no more cleaning changerooms!
no more scrubbing toilets and showers! =D

this is actually amazing =D

okay. sorry. enough for today =)

i hope you are all well,
hugs for you! <3

Listening to ; Love life - He Is We

rainy days.

I don't know why so many people dislike the rainy weather.
I usually don't mind them.

a rainy day is good!
it is a good day for staying home all day doing a lazy collage...
a good day for finding inspiration for that art project,
good for lying on the couch all day cuddled up to your boyfriend watching movies,
good for doing heaps of work on my costume piece,
good for sitting in front of a fire drawing,
good for listening to lots of corny love-songs
and dreaming of your boyfriend
good for curling up in bed surrounded my pillows,
a good book, nutella and a spoon! =D

the trick is not to waste them. the trick is never to be bored =)

love for you~
<3

Listening to; Joe Brooks - Superman

Apologies!

sorry, just realised how terrible my blogging has been of late.
sorry.
i"m kind of weird atm

will try to get back to the short and sweet =)
( and colourful =D )

hope you all like the new look?
=)
hug for you <3

listening to ; Theme to St. Trinians - Girls Aloud

breathe

just had a very scary thought!

you know how parents have an obsession with stalking you
and tracking absolutely everything you do?

even now that I', nineteen,  and have been living out of home for quite a few months now,
i know my mum still tries very hard.

and i just realised that I have a link to this blogg on my facebook, that anyone can see.

ergo ; Mum, if you are reading this,
IT IS ALL A LIE.

please stop reading now mum.
okay, thanks mum, bye, love you =)




it's just....parents are so hypocritical. mine especially.
they treat you like a ten year old, and if you don't act like an adult they punish you like a ten year old, and speak to you like a ten year old constantly anyway.

and they wonder why we get angry at them>

i never actually went through the 'rebellion"

stage. i have never shouted at my mum ( well, since i was like thirteen )
although if we ever didn't agree on something, i would try and actually have a discussion about it,
( as i have always done debates and philosophy studies )

and she would just yell and scream
"don't argue with me! " how dare you! I'm your mother!'
show some respect!" don't you dare yell at me! '

i never did any of that. she expected me to act like an adult, and i was trying as hard as i could to actually act and converse like one.

and I got screamed at like I was eight.


that is why I don't like my mum so much.

I know that she only ever wants the best for me,
but I just wish parent would stop being so controlling!
i mean still? really? ye gods! 

she was the one that was so forceful to get me to move out of home,
that was wanting me to pay rent in my own home if i was to stay now that i was eighteen,
and we actually had to go through counselling to negotiate what i was to go this year
( i.e gap year v.s year thirteen vs University )

well look how well that worked out -.-

i think i just need to work out how to stand up for myself.
normally i am okay with this,
but to our parents? is something i think we all struggle with.

i think sometimes we have to show and tell them that we want, and are ready, to take control and need to live our own lives, not the ones they dream or idolise for us to live.

miss you <3

Listening to ; La Roux - Bulletproof

radioactive

oh don't look at me like that =P

i am allowed to be pathetic and such when i want to =P

as long as i am aware i am doing it, and only for fun, it's fine =P
hehehe

so! good day?
yes!
it has been.
i asked the really cute boy i have been dating for a few weeks not to be my boyfriend.
he said yes
=D
SO HAPPY! =D
really, i am amazingly happy =D
i was so scared and worried! it took me hours to work up the courage to ask him,
even though we both knew I was going to ask him today XD

this is an example of how terrified and pathetic it comes to me in relationships XD

but he said yes. and that is amazing =D

sorry, we have been dating a few weeks, i don't think i've told you?
sorry :/

Also!
i discovered today,
why swimming outside in the sun is not always amazing...
i love it, because you can work out and tan and keep fit at teh same time!
i live my swimming =D
( although i was the only male in the entire outdoor area today ( well, when i was swimming at least )

it was really weird O.o

and. not so good.
because, sitting on wall, waiting for time to come around, enjoying sun, still recovering from sprint, and
suddenly,
cold breeze!
ARGH!
nipples feel like they have ice-blocks placed on them!
ARGH!

yeah. I know.
I'm weird.
which would explain why i was slightly turned on at the same time...
XD 
sorry! you probably didn't need to know that
XD


but, that said, ice + porno-music-slash-comment-time can equal a lot of fun =P
XD

sorry!

I am in a weird mood today. sorry about that =P
XD

okay. sorry! please don't be freaked out toooo much...
i love you? <3

Listening too ; Jan-Jan - Inga & Anush

1 2 3 !

 well.
what a friggin' amazing day!
had a very awesome lunch date with
a cute someone special.

he's pretty awesome.
okay, fine.
very.
and I like him a lot.
that's allowed =P
and I'm pretty sure ( and hoping like all hell )
he likes me too =D
and he's super cute =D
and funny,
and I love his smile.
and he has gorgeous eyes.
and his sweet words.
mMMmmmmmm =D


and I meta few of his awesome
( if slightly crazy - but that just adds to it =D ) friends =D

so. yeah. my day has been pretty awesome =D

my costume is coming along depressingly slowly,
but that's okay,
uni is over now,
only a few things left to do =D

so I have lots of time for it =D

and I have my final induction part for work tomorrow!
then I can start work =D
just three hours of legal jazz...
yay....


how has your day been?
I hope all is okay, I miss you!
<3

Listening to ; Lenny Kravitz - Are You Gonna Go My Way

dating?

umm yeah...

help?
O.o

i have no idea what i am doing.
at all.

so, tonight was our third date,
and...i have no idea how it went.

i just have no idea how to judge it.

i mean, i have only ever been on about three dates in my entire life before this relationship.

and all we to the movies.

( which confuses me, what is the point of going on a date and taking them to the movies?
The food is shit and overpriced, you can't talk, and if you try anything vaguely distracting to anyone else you get kicked out,
and you rarely actually end up watching the movie.

utterly pointless! )



anyway. sorry about that little rant. ummm where was I....

yes! attempting to date someone. right!

i just don't know what is supposed to happen/ do / talk about?

that said i don't think there should be a guide...
I understand that you should just do and say what you feel and act as you always do.

hell, easier said than done -.-

i guess it's just because , normally I have attended the same school as that person?
or was good friends with one of thier housemates?
so it was easier to see them or to arrange to?
bah! just strange anyway.

I don't know...third date, isn't something supposed to happen?
I don;t know! I just have no idea what is supposed to happen now.
do we go more often?
go to fancier places? or what?

I mean, what's the next step?
argh!


i think, i mena we text a lot, and i'm weird to text...
i prefer to talk to someone in person, i'm more used to that...
I like that....



and sometimes i wonder that apart from the ceaseless texting, ....
I have to quote something here, sorry about this. awesome song btw XD
" if I could read your mind, boy would i find any trace of me at all?"


hahahaa! ahh dear. I am utterly hopeless aren't I....
oh well.



love you <3
**hugs**

Listening to ; Jessie J - Domino

Halloween!

is on it's way!
YES! =D

i missed out a lot on it in my youth,
deprived child here i know :'(

but it just never happened in our neighbourhood.

until I was about fifteen.
then I was like, bugger!


So! today, i should get onto before that tangent gets too long :3

i suppose i shouldn't say too much.
well...i got a few last work things sorted, talked to my paymaster, got the last few bits of info in and junk...

then spent four and half hours on a lunch date with an awesome person.....

and am going on another date with said amazing / cute/ gorgeous/ well humoured/ person tomorrow night?
=D

i suppose i should have mentioned him before...
sorry about that :3


So! there are a few Halloween parties coming up though,
so i have full reason to go all out with a Halloween costume!
=D

so, tomorrow will be lots of op-shopping
and costume finding! need to find gloves
and a proper bow tie perhaps...
a cheap long coat in which i can sew heaps of patches...
and tight black jeans of something i can cover in patchwork...

thinking eldar style harlequin...
cross maybe Fame themed Halloween Carnevil party?
=D

oh well! should be awesome anyway =D

all fun for tomorrow! =D

sorry for lack of blog posts recently! have been trapped in a good book, it's called The Wise Man's Fear.

pretty awesome.
a good read =)
and clever =)

okay, enough rambling =P
hugs for you!
<3

Listening to ; It's All About You - Juliana Pasha

you can't have a rainbow without a little rain =)

so!
today,
as typical Hobart weather, was all seasons in one day.
started of really sunny, and so i dressed for it...
and was actually really nice!

not that I actually slept..
but hey,, i had some amazing fun with my friends last night and today, it was great, and i do miss them,
so catching up with them is always great =)

what else....
oh!
i learnt how to use our coffee machine!
at 4 am this morning! =D

heys, don't look at me like that! =P

but otherwise, has had  a good day,
went into town this afternoon, bought some cool little pokemon things
( I lost my little yoshi! very sad :'(    )
and a new book - The Wise Man's Fear, the second after The Name of The Wind 


looking really good so far!

but the rain has put me in a strange mood, so I have moved my bed and mattress out into our lounge room, and have curled up in front of the fire with thai chicken curry and fried-rice,
about to watch Bend It Like Beckham =D


Then, will lie back and read more of the book later, with lots of ice cream, bananas and strawberries for a treat! =D

hugs for you! <3

Listening to ; Satellite - Lena 

success

okay,
I feel bad for this.
but I have to go on this rant.
fell free not to read , unless you are that bored,
or mastering procrastination. =P

I think what a lot of people think of as success, is  a very strange thing indeed.

success isn't fame, it isn't money, or power.
success isn't being loved or lusted by everybody,
or having the biggest house,
or the best looks or the biggest company.


success, is when,

you are so excited to go to what you have to do,
that you literally fly out the door,
when you love the people you work with,
success is connecting with the worked,
and loving do death what you do,
and knowing it makes you happy, and other people happy.
it's falling asleep at night, knowing that you did the best job you could.
success is joy, and freedom and friendship.
ans success, is love.

success is when you are loved and remembered for who you are, now what you do.

that is what I believe.
but for you, well,
that is up to you.
and only you can make that decision, that choice.

good luck.


be strong, be brave =)

hugs for you! <3

Listening to ;  Suddenly I See - K.t Tunstall

It Gets Better.

So,
after my video from yesterday, I felt inspired,
and after recently hearing about the It gets Better Project,
I felt obliged to make  an it gets better video.

this is an amazing project,
as nearly 90% of all LGBTI youth, face harrasment and bullying, both verbal and physical.
and 1 in 3  LGBTI youth attempt suicide.
I myself came quite close  a few times.

so many , this year especially, have taken their lives.

here is my message =)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mIRZ6rPZqiM&edit=ev&feature=uenh


so that is why this is important, and so special.
to prove that it does get better,
and that you are not alone, and that living is worth it.

I cannot tell you enough, you are perfect for who you are, no matter what.
It does get better.
you have to choose what is right, now what is easy.
be strong
Be brave.you are perfect, and you are never alone =)

and some one out there is crazy about you =)

<3

Listening to : Fame - Hold Your Dream

dreaming

so!
I discovered what love is today! =D
"love is the irresistible desire to be irresistibly desired!"
=D

Oh, and the movie Fame is actually so amazing!i know it's not exactly new,
but I only just saw it!and I spent most of the last half hour in either tears of joy or sadness!
so powerful and moving. =)
I think it is a new top for me =D


I love jenny's speech at the end, about success. very moving, and powerful, and true.

if you haven't seen it, you should =)

Oh!
and i got the job!
got my offer of employment in the mail today! *\o/*

very excited!my induction is in three days! wows! =D
well, the first one anyways =D
and then i have a lot of formalities, and
half a book of paperwork to get through..
But I am on second pay grade level, so it's all good, and hopefully will be worth it =)


okay. be strong, be brave =)

love you, as always =)

<3

Listening to; Joe Brooks - Superman

movie night #2! =D

so! strange ungodly hour walks to buy videos and chocolate...?

so now i lie in bed, watching Fame
and noming on toblerone ( mmMMMmmmmm =D )

with Step Up 1 & 2 lined up, Dream Girls, Footlose and Easy A as well =D
weeeeeee!

what else...oh yes! i made a video for my friend emma!
its was her birthday the other day, and her party,
which I would have loved to attended, and loved the theme idea,

but she, and her party, are  a thousand miles away :'(

so, I got the idea from her girlfriend,
to dress up and make a video for her and send a message of love and birthday wishes. so i did! =D

also, very excited to be going home this weekend! back down to Hobart and the beach,
mum and brother are of to Freycinet,
( yes, i am a little envious =P )

so i get to house sit and look after our Steffi puppy! =D

and have a few friends over, shall be awesome! wii, dancing, midnight walks along beach..
awesome =D

I have already made the music playlist =D

oh, and I also bought a bobble machine for it... O.o
=D

and no, no one of you is allowed to watch that video! it is for emma's eyes only =P
and her girlfriend is allowed to I suppose =P

but oh so embarrassing! oh the shame!

i look so pale in it I scared me o.O
damn lighting XD

oh well. be string and be brave peoples,
and have fun , always =)

<3

listening to ; Hot Chelle Rae - I Like To Dance

Okay!
 special post, just for two amazing songs.
I have been busy!
I actually have!
the sun is important! we get so little of it, so i try to make the most of it =P

so, gardening has actually been nice!
and hell, this place needs it -.-

dislikes other housemates who leave trolleys around the place >.<

bah! oh well.
so, I should go, I have far too much cleaning to do and only two days to do it!
argh!

also, sorry about absence of photos or anything for a while, i have lots of stuff, i just never find time po put t up or sort it out! sorry!

okay. Be strong, be brave, love you always  =)

<3

Listening to ; Jessie J - Who You Are
& Goldfrapp - Happiness

okay, they come one one after the other, and both are justifiably awesome, so both are going up! =P