I'd like to believe

well, a lot of things I guess
first things first - yes, I am alive-
( although I seem to be getting asked this question a lot )
so not sure how much my say counts for...

I am just trying to organise a few things
myself mostly,
and perhaps not going as well as I should be.
The hardest things is starting one new aspect,
one new things I haven't tackled before..

But I guess that is old news.
of course what is new is always hard.

Mostly I am trying to figure out what to do with myself.
no small task I can assure you.
but I have narrowed it down and the criteria
for any prospective careers and jobs has been decided.

But of course in contextual and such,
but I know there must be balance.
There must always be balance, in anything and everything we do.

In this case it must be between success and happiness.
Undoubtedly an extremely common balance sought I do not doubt.

although I really don't know,
those few I have narrowed it down to are all so different and all stand out and for different reasons!
I guess I have never had an obvious career path. that has always been obvious,
I love a lot of things , and I am certainly not lacking in intelligence.
there are very few subjects or aspects in life in which i have not/ do not excel
( and yes - obviously height is one of them =P )

So yes. My little dilemma.
well, big dilemma I suppose.
but relatively, one very small things in all this world, which is even then so small.

Love and miss you all -
Goodnight <3
ayrton

Listening to - Sistar - Alone

It Gets Better.

So,
after my video from yesterday, I felt inspired,
and after recently hearing about the It gets Better Project,
I felt obliged to make  an it gets better video.

this is an amazing project,
as nearly 90% of all LGBTI youth, face harrasment and bullying, both verbal and physical.
and 1 in 3  LGBTI youth attempt suicide.
I myself came quite close  a few times.

so many , this year especially, have taken their lives.

here is my message =)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mIRZ6rPZqiM&edit=ev&feature=uenh


so that is why this is important, and so special.
to prove that it does get better,
and that you are not alone, and that living is worth it.

I cannot tell you enough, you are perfect for who you are, no matter what.
It does get better.
you have to choose what is right, now what is easy.
be strong
Be brave.you are perfect, and you are never alone =)

and some one out there is crazy about you =)

<3

Listening to : Fame - Hold Your Dream

La Voix

So,  looked over an old awesome facebook page today'
" Hey, look at my hot boyfriend, LOL jk I'm going to die alone with 27 cats."
I must admit , I did find it rather amusing.
but, hell, why cats?
i know cats are the cliche 
creatures for lonely peoples...
but ...well...WHY?
now, I am not a cat or dog person, I like both.
and I must say, most cats, when you try to hug them, try to claw your face off,
and are generally evil.
true, people say cat's have personality and dogs don't, 
( I disagree ) 
but cats, if they do, most cats are cynical, eccentric, selfish and evil! ) 
but very, very , very cute and fluffy! =D 
or the typical short-haired serene-gazing cat that sits on tall objects and stare down at passers-by.
those cats give me the creeps.


still cool though =D

so. sorry, I will leave the tangent now...back to my other rant. XD


But I would definitely go for a few dogs 
as oppose to living surrounded by a score of cats....


they may not all be hugely bright 
which is why I'd get huskies or malamutes =D
( they are supposedly smart ( er? ) dogs...
which are medium-large , fluffy, happy, beautiful dogs ( love their eyes =D ) 



and yeah, they require a bit of looking after, but so what.


they are happy, loyal, bouncy creatures that love hugs and to play with, 
which is much more what a sad, depressed lonely person needs,


rather than two dozen cats which probably will just sit there glaring, 
scratching and giving that
I-am-so-much-better-than-you,-you-lowly-pathetic-human-thing!
stare that they always give you when they are in a bad mood
( which is when they are tired, have just woken up, have just eaten, or are hungry )
....
so....most of the time? 
=P

Thus,
I, will live alone, but not lonely , surrounded by 
a dozen  big, loyal, cuddly and cute dogs 
that love me as much as I love them! =D


Love for you <3

listening to ; Hairspray - You Can't Stop The Beat!