cold day

It is SO cold!
Open shift at work not so fun when everything is covered in ice hahaha!
very cool to look at in an eerie kind if way though..
but for some reason I think it just got to me.
I don't know.
Sometimes our emotions just get the better of us I think.
we are only human after all.

I think the best thing you can do on a day, when all you want to do is curl up in bed all day and cry,is to make yourself busy. You make yourself run all the errands and pay all the bills and sort everything that needs sorting.So that it consumes you, and you don't have time or effort to spend wasting thoughts about such silly and inane emotions.Because by the time your remember, it doesn't matter so much,and you've made a great, efficient day when you would likely have simply not otherwise bothered with the day at all.


missing you all,
ayrton.

Listening to ; Renee Olstead - A Love That Will Last

Frozen

So I woke up this morning,
and had a few mins to spare,
checked THC
and found
This amazing photo from Netherlands,


and it reminded me of my grandfather telling me
of winter times in Denmark, of the long open plan houses , and scenes very much like this,
sitting out on a frozen river or fjord ,
and just rugging up, taking a table and chairs out,
as many of the café's and such would,
and just sitting out layered and
snuggled up in war, scarves, jackets,
beanies and fluffy socks and boots,

watch the ice and air itself steaming around you,
and a big bowl or soups and a hunk of cheese and bread

it makes me wish of winter times!
well, if only it ever snowed and got so cold here!
I would be fine, I am the only guard at work
who goes out in the mornings and doesn't take a jacket,

and everyone else just thinks I'm so weird =P

so yes, I think when I'm older I'll find somewhere where I can
find my ice and snow =D


hope you are all well
loving and missing you all,
ayrton

Listening to ; C'est Ma Vie - Evelina Sasenko

radioactive

oh don't look at me like that =P

i am allowed to be pathetic and such when i want to =P

as long as i am aware i am doing it, and only for fun, it's fine =P
hehehe

so! good day?
yes!
it has been.
i asked the really cute boy i have been dating for a few weeks not to be my boyfriend.
he said yes
=D
SO HAPPY! =D
really, i am amazingly happy =D
i was so scared and worried! it took me hours to work up the courage to ask him,
even though we both knew I was going to ask him today XD

this is an example of how terrified and pathetic it comes to me in relationships XD

but he said yes. and that is amazing =D

sorry, we have been dating a few weeks, i don't think i've told you?
sorry :/

Also!
i discovered today,
why swimming outside in the sun is not always amazing...
i love it, because you can work out and tan and keep fit at teh same time!
i live my swimming =D
( although i was the only male in the entire outdoor area today ( well, when i was swimming at least )

it was really weird O.o

and. not so good.
because, sitting on wall, waiting for time to come around, enjoying sun, still recovering from sprint, and
suddenly,
cold breeze!
ARGH!
nipples feel like they have ice-blocks placed on them!
ARGH!

yeah. I know.
I'm weird.
which would explain why i was slightly turned on at the same time...
XD 
sorry! you probably didn't need to know that
XD


but, that said, ice + porno-music-slash-comment-time can equal a lot of fun =P
XD

sorry!

I am in a weird mood today. sorry about that =P
XD

okay. sorry! please don't be freaked out toooo much...
i love you? <3

Listening too ; Jan-Jan - Inga & Anush