update

sorry it has been s long!
I have been feeling a bit sick lately, sorry guys :/

so yeah, costume didn't make it, currently lying in bed at home sick and half asleep wishing i was out with my friends.

I have been so tired!

I have now officially watched every single Natalie Tran youtube video I can find.
=D
I know. epic achievement in procrastination =D
i live an amazing life don't I.....

but oh well. I will finish the costume soon, just letting a layer of paint dry for now.

in other news...UNI is all over now =D
and I have just had my first two shifts at my new work last week =)

work is very awesome, richard, one of the guys who's been "training" me
( i say "training" as we soon discovered that I have been lifeguarding as long as he has XD )
he's pretty awesome =D
and the customer service girls and ladies are pretty awesome =D
I'm not sure of her name, only that she has a senior position and blonde hair, and a  giant smile constantly,
they are all really nice and bubbly and friendly, and she in particular is just a little crazy =D

it's amazing =D

oh! and we have cleaners! which means no more cleaning changerooms!
no more scrubbing toilets and showers! =D

this is actually amazing =D

okay. sorry. enough for today =)

i hope you are all well,
hugs for you! <3

Listening to ; Love life - He Is We

rainy days.

I don't know why so many people dislike the rainy weather.
I usually don't mind them.

a rainy day is good!
it is a good day for staying home all day doing a lazy collage...
a good day for finding inspiration for that art project,
good for lying on the couch all day cuddled up to your boyfriend watching movies,
good for doing heaps of work on my costume piece,
good for sitting in front of a fire drawing,
good for listening to lots of corny love-songs
and dreaming of your boyfriend
good for curling up in bed surrounded my pillows,
a good book, nutella and a spoon! =D

the trick is not to waste them. the trick is never to be bored =)

love for you~
<3

Listening to; Joe Brooks - Superman

Apologies!

sorry, just realised how terrible my blogging has been of late.
sorry.
i"m kind of weird atm

will try to get back to the short and sweet =)
( and colourful =D )

hope you all like the new look?
=)
hug for you <3

listening to ; Theme to St. Trinians - Girls Aloud

breathe

just had a very scary thought!

you know how parents have an obsession with stalking you
and tracking absolutely everything you do?

even now that I', nineteen,  and have been living out of home for quite a few months now,
i know my mum still tries very hard.

and i just realised that I have a link to this blogg on my facebook, that anyone can see.

ergo ; Mum, if you are reading this,
IT IS ALL A LIE.

please stop reading now mum.
okay, thanks mum, bye, love you =)




it's just....parents are so hypocritical. mine especially.
they treat you like a ten year old, and if you don't act like an adult they punish you like a ten year old, and speak to you like a ten year old constantly anyway.

and they wonder why we get angry at them>

i never actually went through the 'rebellion"

stage. i have never shouted at my mum ( well, since i was like thirteen )
although if we ever didn't agree on something, i would try and actually have a discussion about it,
( as i have always done debates and philosophy studies )

and she would just yell and scream
"don't argue with me! " how dare you! I'm your mother!'
show some respect!" don't you dare yell at me! '

i never did any of that. she expected me to act like an adult, and i was trying as hard as i could to actually act and converse like one.

and I got screamed at like I was eight.


that is why I don't like my mum so much.

I know that she only ever wants the best for me,
but I just wish parent would stop being so controlling!
i mean still? really? ye gods! 

she was the one that was so forceful to get me to move out of home,
that was wanting me to pay rent in my own home if i was to stay now that i was eighteen,
and we actually had to go through counselling to negotiate what i was to go this year
( i.e gap year v.s year thirteen vs University )

well look how well that worked out -.-

i think i just need to work out how to stand up for myself.
normally i am okay with this,
but to our parents? is something i think we all struggle with.

i think sometimes we have to show and tell them that we want, and are ready, to take control and need to live our own lives, not the ones they dream or idolise for us to live.

miss you <3

Listening to ; La Roux - Bulletproof

radioactive

oh don't look at me like that =P

i am allowed to be pathetic and such when i want to =P

as long as i am aware i am doing it, and only for fun, it's fine =P
hehehe

so! good day?
yes!
it has been.
i asked the really cute boy i have been dating for a few weeks not to be my boyfriend.
he said yes
=D
SO HAPPY! =D
really, i am amazingly happy =D
i was so scared and worried! it took me hours to work up the courage to ask him,
even though we both knew I was going to ask him today XD

this is an example of how terrified and pathetic it comes to me in relationships XD

but he said yes. and that is amazing =D

sorry, we have been dating a few weeks, i don't think i've told you?
sorry :/

Also!
i discovered today,
why swimming outside in the sun is not always amazing...
i love it, because you can work out and tan and keep fit at teh same time!
i live my swimming =D
( although i was the only male in the entire outdoor area today ( well, when i was swimming at least )

it was really weird O.o

and. not so good.
because, sitting on wall, waiting for time to come around, enjoying sun, still recovering from sprint, and
suddenly,
cold breeze!
ARGH!
nipples feel like they have ice-blocks placed on them!
ARGH!

yeah. I know.
I'm weird.
which would explain why i was slightly turned on at the same time...
XD 
sorry! you probably didn't need to know that
XD


but, that said, ice + porno-music-slash-comment-time can equal a lot of fun =P
XD

sorry!

I am in a weird mood today. sorry about that =P
XD

okay. sorry! please don't be freaked out toooo much...
i love you? <3

Listening too ; Jan-Jan - Inga & Anush

1 2 3 !

 well.
what a friggin' amazing day!
had a very awesome lunch date with
a cute someone special.

he's pretty awesome.
okay, fine.
very.
and I like him a lot.
that's allowed =P
and I'm pretty sure ( and hoping like all hell )
he likes me too =D
and he's super cute =D
and funny,
and I love his smile.
and he has gorgeous eyes.
and his sweet words.
mMMmmmmmm =D


and I meta few of his awesome
( if slightly crazy - but that just adds to it =D ) friends =D

so. yeah. my day has been pretty awesome =D

my costume is coming along depressingly slowly,
but that's okay,
uni is over now,
only a few things left to do =D

so I have lots of time for it =D

and I have my final induction part for work tomorrow!
then I can start work =D
just three hours of legal jazz...
yay....


how has your day been?
I hope all is okay, I miss you!
<3

Listening to ; Lenny Kravitz - Are You Gonna Go My Way

dating?

umm yeah...

help?
O.o

i have no idea what i am doing.
at all.

so, tonight was our third date,
and...i have no idea how it went.

i just have no idea how to judge it.

i mean, i have only ever been on about three dates in my entire life before this relationship.

and all we to the movies.

( which confuses me, what is the point of going on a date and taking them to the movies?
The food is shit and overpriced, you can't talk, and if you try anything vaguely distracting to anyone else you get kicked out,
and you rarely actually end up watching the movie.

utterly pointless! )



anyway. sorry about that little rant. ummm where was I....

yes! attempting to date someone. right!

i just don't know what is supposed to happen/ do / talk about?

that said i don't think there should be a guide...
I understand that you should just do and say what you feel and act as you always do.

hell, easier said than done -.-

i guess it's just because , normally I have attended the same school as that person?
or was good friends with one of thier housemates?
so it was easier to see them or to arrange to?
bah! just strange anyway.

I don't know...third date, isn't something supposed to happen?
I don;t know! I just have no idea what is supposed to happen now.
do we go more often?
go to fancier places? or what?

I mean, what's the next step?
argh!


i think, i mena we text a lot, and i'm weird to text...
i prefer to talk to someone in person, i'm more used to that...
I like that....



and sometimes i wonder that apart from the ceaseless texting, ....
I have to quote something here, sorry about this. awesome song btw XD
" if I could read your mind, boy would i find any trace of me at all?"


hahahaa! ahh dear. I am utterly hopeless aren't I....
oh well.



love you <3
**hugs**

Listening to ; Jessie J - Domino