inspiration

sorry for all the anger.
I don't like it when I'm angry or annoyed either i promise.
I'm just glad it never lasts more than an hour or two.

so, here's some happy thoughts and inspiration for you From Eleanor Roosevelt.

"Do what you feel in your heart to be right- for you'll be criticized anyway. You'll be damned if you do, and damned if you don't."


"Great minds discuss ideas; average minds discuss events; small minds discuss people."


and don't fret,
I will make sure I try to include quotes in most of my posts now,
either of my own or another's design =)


missing and love you all,

ayrton

Listening to; Arlene Zelena - love the way you lie

silly government

yeah.
someone has just annoyed me lately, so retreating out and decided to put my frustration to something productive.

writing to a senate inquiry to marriage equality in this country.
probably shabby. will work a few more minutes. just had to vent annoyance/ frustration.



I wish for this this discrimination to end.
legally there are thankfully only a few pieces of legal discrimination against the LGBTI community.

Because hopefully it will begin the end of discrimination of LBGTI people within the Australian community.

I grew up so scared and terrifed of who I was.
I thought I was wrong, that I was nothing, nothing to be proud of, or to be.
Since then, I have been many things.
I have been an Australian Swimming Champion, I have topped scores in my studies across my state for Philosophy, English and Ancient Civilizations in my College years.
I continue to do so in my University years.
I ask you, how you under what possible moral justification are allowing someone who has murdered another, who has belittled or committed crimes against humanity,
such a basic human right that you will not grant me?
Who are you to say that I am a lesser citizen and do not deserve such a basic legal right I ask you?
Do not even think you can.
That is what I have spent so many years studying.
Trying to figure out why people hate me so much, merely for who I am, before they no what I am like, what I have done, even before they have spoken to me.

I want this legal discrimination to end, and hopefully, it will end so much hate.
To those of you who believe it is a bad thing,
fine. You are entitled to your beliefs, you opinions and hate, prejudice and bigotry.
but no, there is no way you can morally justify how your beliefs, that should deprive me of such a right, any right, when I have done ought wrong but be who I am.



argh. I do not writing such things, and I hate that I sound so prideful, but sometimes you have to gain someone's respect quickly for your words to have any weight or influence.

oh well. if the australian government doesn't do something soon, so be it. I have no reason to stay in a country that values hate and prejudice and ignore what is right and not always easy.



ayrton.

Listening to - Marina & the Diamonds - Fear and Loathing

lazy

still feeling sluggish and wanting to curl up in bed!

but oh well.

I have work at least tomorrow!

and tesltra person should come 

and install internet at our house!

should. bah!

I have been swimming a lot lately, 

and working, which means that 

of course I have seen lots of people 

I used to swim and compete against 

not that long ago when I swum competitively

and I am never sure to say hello or not,

I even work with a few I used to race against.

one is really nice, he's a cool guy.

the others...not so warm towards me apparently?

argh, I guess that's why I never quite went 

the whole nine yards with swimming.

I never quite fitted in with everyone else.

I was never very well...

liked by everyone, or real friends with them, I suppose.

and now they all see me training so hard again, 

if i keep up my regime, in a few months 

I should be almost back to top form I was when I quit.

and I don't know what I'll do then.

but I know this.

the one thing that helped me get over being 

such a loner in swimming 

was that I knew I enjoyed it, that I trained harder than anyone else, 

that I was a disciplined and as dedicated as any other to it.

although I did not have as much money to 

spend on gym and lots of proper food 

or  for race entry fee's as everyone else.

but  I was never great in the races anyway.

although I trained as hard , if not harder,

than everyone else in training.

I don't know.

I think I just didn't quite have the natural talent of the others.

or, I think I was scared of them. I mean of course

I was scared of those I raced against. and I didn't get

 that adrenalin rush or huge competitive streak they all had.

so when it came to big races I never did very well.

I mean by my times i should have won, but when it 

came to a big race I could never quite

 put myself mentally or physically up to it.

So, to everyone who ever feels scared of worried 

about having to push yourself against others,
here is one tidbit of advice that was the one thing

 that stopped me being a complete and

 total failure when it came to racing ;

"There really isn't much difference between an angry mob screaming abuse and booing at you,

and an adoring and cheering crowd. They're both just making a lot of noise. 

convince yourself they're cheering for you,
and someday they will."

little world

Hi guys.
really don't know what to say.
feeling not so super lately.
today was kinda  a day where
you just want to cuddle up in bed next to someone all day.
meh.
I never understood it or had this want until today.
I think I'm just getting old

but that's okay.
today was nice, went for a nice swim with my old housemate lizzie,
she's very cool, then went into town and had chat with her
over coffee and lunch.
just talking about everything,
from boyfriends, to uni,
to family, to missing our friends,
to food and hobbies,
to growing up, to places we've been
( she has for more in this department to talk about though.. )
and I think ...
that although ,
she is only a year or two my senior.
I think I have a lot to look forward to
as we all do.


missing you all and hope you are well,
ayrton <3

Listening to ; The Fear - Lily Allen

Frozen

So I woke up this morning,
and had a few mins to spare,
checked THC
and found
This amazing photo from Netherlands,


and it reminded me of my grandfather telling me
of winter times in Denmark, of the long open plan houses , and scenes very much like this,
sitting out on a frozen river or fjord ,
and just rugging up, taking a table and chairs out,
as many of the café's and such would,
and just sitting out layered and
snuggled up in war, scarves, jackets,
beanies and fluffy socks and boots,

watch the ice and air itself steaming around you,
and a big bowl or soups and a hunk of cheese and bread

it makes me wish of winter times!
well, if only it ever snowed and got so cold here!
I would be fine, I am the only guard at work
who goes out in the mornings and doesn't take a jacket,

and everyone else just thinks I'm so weird =P

so yes, I think when I'm older I'll find somewhere where I can
find my ice and snow =D


hope you are all well
loving and missing you all,
ayrton

Listening to ; C'est Ma Vie - Evelina Sasenko

Be My Valetine?

okay, or not...

but if you are single and felling lonely, please, 

don't do the whole meladramatic 

"Forever alone' 

mentality.

Please.

It's just sad..

I mean, at least try to have fun...

I think that I, for example, would be

"Forever the short one"

because that's some shit that I know is never going to change.

don't be forever alone.

 forever is a hell of along time, 

and trust me, someone out there is crazy about you!

But. 

enough!

I have had a super day,

I went shopping and bought some awesome stuff for only $40

then grabbed coffee & lunch in town involving too many cookies 

( and seriously, gigantic coffee's this place... )

then went for a long nice swim in the sun to work of shameful fatty foods =P

 now I am home alone pumping up the music and dancing away, then going to watch Beauty and the beast before early start tomorrow morning for work! D=

love you and miss you all,
ayrton xoxo

Listening to ; Harel Skaat - Kama Od Efshar

Corny, Romantic, Cliche . . . = For the win!

So yes!
it's that day again people!
Today is Valetines Day,
When we get to be shamelessly hopeless, corny, romantic, soppy and cliché and no one can tell us off....
so,
when i look at it, as a single person, I really don;t have any options that aren't considered corny/ cliché

1) sit at home all day watching crappy tv/ movies eating lots of chcoclate ( or in my case, fruit as i refuse to buy chocolate as much as possible.. )

( this is me , minus lots of food, feel free to insert your own jar of nuttela, blocks of dairy and darck chcolate, piles of mint slices etc... )

or..

2)
cry in my dark room about all the boys I have ever had a cruch on and why they all think i'm hideous and don't like me and listening to endless sad- cry- my -heart-out music. ( Adele's 21 album on repeat comes to mind for cliché.. )

3) send bunches or chocolates and roses out to all those crushes ( a few days previous of course )
and sit around all day waiting for a message or other sign of communication from said persons ) 

( sorry, don't have a photo for this one! )

or 4) , I could do what I plan on doing, 2which is going into town dressed up playing all my happy music, doing some chopping, swimming and sunbaking in this gorgeous weather =D

I'll give you photos when I get back =P

so, no matter what, smile, have a good day,
please don't mope around make the most of it,I hope this day gives you the strength and courage
to stand up and say to those people you like, love , have a crush on or whatever,
I hope today you find it real enough to stand up and do something =)

missing and love you all =)
ayrton xoxo

Listening to ; Bubbly - Colby Callait